Yesterday such an anxiety attac hit me, I was about to call and say I do not want the job, I even wanted to leave the bank... don't even ask me why, I have no idea. thankfully we had our knitting meeting, and the girls kept my thoughts off, but when I got home... I was alone as P. took Chris to the lake, and you know when those evil thoughts come...
thankfully I was rather busy today, and around eleven I calmed down enough to call the girl, we sat down after work, and when I left I felt a LOT better. I told her some of my "problems" i.e. time (I mean that time can come when I will be alone with Ch. and then I can't do indefinite overtime, my inexperience at some of the computer programs they use, but it seems we like each other. I also told my boss' offer for rotation and she said she will consider it, even if I do not get that particular job... It is even possible that I will not get it because of the money... because I am so good in my current job, with the sales, that my bonus is very high, and they might not be able to offer me more than I make now... so now I can lay back and ask the universe to give me whatever would be the best.
Of course anxiety means no sleep, and since P. wasn't here I could knit way into the night... I seem to caught startitis... I did a swatch for the mohair beaded shrug, and some repeats of the butterfly lace, from the cotton linen yarn. I love that pattern so much that I want to make the top version too.
Yesterday Kriszta brought some magazines she bought at the Burda shop, and I loved one of them, so after I finished work and the meeting I went to the shop. I almost gave up, the last was pretty well hidden, but I got it, and.......... and they had ROWAN yarn!!! I couldn't believe my eyes!!! Rowan cotton!!! for 520 ft/ball (less than 3 USD)... they only had it in three color, yellow (wich is NOT my color, a nondescript blue, and a peachy/melony orange...which is much more like me.