I am still

feeling like a tank went over me... several times. The emotional rollercoaster over the last two weeks took it's toll. Not even roller-coaster really, because there were only low, and even lower points, and no peaks. The two big blow on saturday still making me paralyzed... I am just stunned and cannot react. I don't feel like talking. I don't feel like feeling even. I am so tired. In the evenings I either can't fell asleep, because of all those thoughts swarming in my head, or I am so tired I almost faint... but no matter which one is the case I wake up at 5-6 AM in the morning and can't go back asleep...